Have you ever looked upon a situation in your life and thought, "God, what are you up to? Surely this part of my story is not what's best for my life."
As I survey my current situation and the situations of those who are close to me, I see a lot of brokenness. Illnesses, deaths, disabilities, additions, betrayals, divorces, job losses....the list of suffering goes on and on.
And if I'm honest with myself, I find that I'm often wrestling with God in hopes that my wisdom could somehow triumph over HIS. My pride creeps in, deceiving me to think I know what's best for me and for others.
It's in those moments of doubting HIS goodness that I see the depths of my wicked folly. And therefore see my highlighted need for the exhortation Paul offers in the above doxology. (Romans 11:33-36)
I imagine this internal struggle is one that I'll have for quite some time. It is, after all, in my human, sinful nature.
But slowly, I'm learning to trust in God's infinite wisdom. To trust in HIS goodness. And to trust in HIS sovereignty.
This life is certainly not what I'd planned, nor is it void of heartache, but it is exactly what I need. And so too is the doxology needful for my weary heart.
If you too find yourself in a similar tired state, simply turn to the ONE, the only one, for whom all things are from, through and to.
Lindsay is wife to Nik and mom to Pierce and Audrey. She spends her days homeschooling and leading Pierce’s Project, a non-profit she founded to support NICU families. Lindsay enjoys writing and has a passion for seeing women grow in their understanding of the Bible and it’s application to their daily lives. More of her writings can be found in the published work, Job: The Mystery of Suffering and God’s Sovereignty by Dr. Richard Belcher.
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